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Name: Meghann Birthday: 4/30/1981 Gender: Female
Interests: Reading, shopping, children's literature, friends, family, teaching, figuring out more about this amazing God. Expertise: Educating six year olds. Children's books. Occupation: Education/training Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
6/13/2002
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| I'm off again. I don't think I'll be posting again anytime soon. Life is full, and blissful, and I'm overwhelmed by it's goodness. | | |
| Not to be one of those women, but this new man is taking up a ton of my time. I can't say I hate it though. I always dislike this whole "getting to know each other" part of a relationship, but I suppose it has it's upsides. That being excited about just getting to see him feeling is nice. We'll see where it goes. He's definitly someone worthwhile. I hope he sticks around. | | |
| I just got back from the best date I've ever been on. This man was incredibly surprising. I never expected it. Let's hope something comes of this. | | |
| I had a truly awful dinner last night. Not awful because of the food, that was fine, but awful because of the company. The company mentioned was my ex-boyfriend and it was his birthday. He and I are attempting to be friends (I say attempting because sometimes I feel like it's a worthless effort) despite the fact that there are many things unresolved between us. You see, we almost got married. To be more accurate he told me he was marrying me and that in a year I'd be his wife, then one day it was over. He never explained why. The person I knew, the man I had loved, was dead. I don't even see that person when I look at him anymore. He doesn't see that person either. He agrees with me. He's gone. So, last night I took him out to dinner to celebrate his birth because his family is in New Jersey and he doesn't have many friends here and it was terrible. Several times during the course of our meal I thought he was going to burst into tears. He hates his birthday because two years ago his grandfather, who he was very close to, died the day before it. Now the day, the thought of his grandfather, the entire month of February is marred by that moment and he has given up on having any sort of life. It made me terribly angry, and sad, and confused all at the same time. I can't cry for him anymore. I can't help him. I can't do anything but pray for him. Losing people is so complicated, especially when you've lost them and they're still standing right in front of you. | | |
| This week has seemed to go by very quickly. I think it's a mix of not feeling particularly well and being fairly busy. My kids are all sick, or sniffling or sneezing all over the place, and it's inevidible that I would pick something up considering they sniffle and sneeze all over me all day. In the past couple days I've rented a lot of movies, many more than I usually rent in an entire month. Tonight I finally got to see Mad Hot Ballroom. I've been trying to get it since it came out and FINALLY it was in. Alright, I'll be honest I cried. It was so incredible! I want to take it in and show my kids, but they're six and I don't think they'd really understand.
I've also been reading up a storm lately. I finished Blue Like Jazz in record time (everyone should read it by the way) and fought a very strong desire to dive right into it again. I wanted to start all over again the second I put it down, but thought it better to digest it first and then go back through. So, instead I read A Northern Light, which was consuming and terribly interesting (remember I'm a teacher, I love young adult fiction). Now I've moved into Travels with Charlie because I felt the need for a little Steinbeck. I have Searching for God Knows What waiting patiently and I'm dying to read Through Painted Deserts too (both Donald Miller books, he wrote Blue Like Jazz). Usually I reserve this mad amount of reading for the beach during the only time of the year when I'm not doing read-alouds every day, but I can't help myself. I'm dying to read.
When life hands you a lemon say, "Oh yeah? I like lemons. What else you got?" ~Henry Rollins | | |
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